and all i have to say is...

report card

2009-10-28T12:20:00.006+11:00

This year has been crazy, ridiculous! All in all, amazing. I wouldn't change a second of it. I know that the person I was at the start of the year, is not the same person sitting writing this. Have experienced and learnt too much. Here's a list of what the education institution of life taught me this year.

I can survive.
I’ll always be scared of the dark.
Nothing is impossible (this includes cooking).
The best way to eat fish and chips is with fresh chili.
Strangers can become amazing friends.
Humanity is beautiful.
Kindness has not been lost in the world.
Beauty truly is in the eye of the beholder.
Family; easy to hate; impossible to like; always love.
Love is complicated.
Love can survive complications.
Getting thrown in the deep end is the best way to learn.
Asking for help is okay.
Taking the initiative is good.
Loneliness can cause destruction.
Reckless behavior is needed at some stage in life.
Don't regret things in life.
Have a knee-jerk reaction to disregard religion.
Respect and admire person’s faith in religion
Long distance friendships make the best friends.
Empathy helps you grow.
Fiji has a cricket team that I can’t wait to support!
Tolstoy is awesome, addictive, splendid…
Only having beer and pawpaw in the fridge equates to a healthy diet.
Pawpaw is the best cure for a hang over.
Karaoke is the best in the middle of the night.
BBQ’s at 3am taste the best.
Spending an afternoon drinking wine with your best girls and singing songs is amazing.
Jewelry is addictive in every country.
Friendships will be lost.
Friendships will be gained.
Laughter is medicine.
Laughter is contagious
Laughter helps you grow.
Taking the risk, reap the rewards.
Am obligated to no-one but myself.

Like i never left

2009-10-27T14:21:00.004+11:00

This feels all too familiar.

Currently, I am at the State Library, attempting to finish my field study ( 8000 word paper). I admit, it is my fault that I am struggling to finish it. I left it until 3 weeks before it was due to start it. And now it's overdue, but have been given until the end of this month to hand it in. Woo hoo?? Stressed out of my mind. But I don't stress like I used to. There used to be a time when I'd stress so much I couldn't sleep for several days and make myself sick. Ah, good 'ol VCE. And I'm sure that's how I passed 1st year of university.

That drive has effaced now though. I find myself daydreaming about what I want to do next rather than focus on the "now". Not helping the situation I know! It's been hard having to put on hold my travel plans and be realistic about my options for next year....work or post grad studies. Though most likely, it's going to be work. *sighs*

Have had such a crazy year. And just got offered my first job in the professional world. It's only a 3 month contract. A part of me is glad it's only 3 months, and another part of me hopes it gets extended. Starting next wednesday, so have a week and a bit to worry about it all!

NO ANIMALS, NO FIREWORKS, NO WEAPONS!!...

2006-03-11T16:07:00.000+11:00

So i went to the commonwealth games opening ceremony dress rehearsal last night with B...wow it wouldn't end!! It wasn't that bad....wait sorry, i'm not allowed to say anything about it..confidentialty reasons you know. I must admit though, that the conditions of entry were absolutely ludicrous. Like for instance, NO ANIMALS, NO FIREWORKS, NO WEAPONS...I mean, spoil the fun!!! B and i had a blast though, sitting on our seats, dancing and grooving to the melody and of course, singing out aloud, "wake me up before you go-go" by WHAM! Because..who doesn't like Wham? And George Michael in those delicious shorts in the video clip. Yes, the 80's was the pinacle of AWESOMENESS!!!

On a more serious note, the conditions of entry were abit over the top. I mean the simple fact that they had to state " no weapons" was beyond ridiculous. Dress rehearsal, none of the big names ( like SHANNON NOLL...note the sarcasm)...why would anyone want to bring a weapon? Be alert not alamed my arse!!! The hysteria's gone beyond what it should've. At this rate, everyones going to suspect everyone....bah! Anywayz that was my two cent towards society!

exam up-date...

2005-11-05T00:59:00.001+11:00

With two exams left, i've sort of started to relax. The first four were awful...well the stress was. I do believe i did alright on my Japanese oral, not only because the examiner was cute but because i spoke well!! English... in all honestly i don't know. I'm so annoyed at myself. I've put so much freaking time and effort into that damn subject, not to mention three years of tutoring~ We got these comprehension questions this year and my teacher wanted thorough answers for them, so i'd start at 6pm and finish at 4am doing those darn questions!! So yes, term 1 , i was literally a walking corpse! But then the exam....bah! It was crap beyond words can explain. I'm really pissed off at myself, went in crying, came out utterly devastated. I was contemplating so many things afterwards, some really stupid things but i was just so angry at myself. Damn you VCAA!

And psych and lit? Well psych i dont know. I went in feeling nothing, came out feeling the same. God this is going to make me sound like a nerd, but i actually had fun in the lit exam. The passages were good and i just couldn't stop writing- hope thats something good. Or do examiners take mark off for writing too much? I wrote like ... 6 pages for the cherry orchard and like 4 or 5 for gatsby? Man i don't know, i just did it and it's over!

Japanese and International Studies left....yippy? Did i mention japs like my worst subject? I didn't, ah well, now you know!

last night...~

2005-08-31T20:26:00.000+10:00

"What platform is the sydenham line?" a voice asked me. I turned around to face baby blue eyes. It was a guy. Nothing quite special about him, just a guy. Having to catch the Sydenham line incessantly eevery week i knowingly replied " yea platform 4". With that i walked off, and made my way to platform 4. I found the cleanest bench and made myself comfy. But omg, was it cold! I got out my book.."trainspotting"...omg seriously a good read, if not a bit on the challenging side!

And then to my surprise, my bench space has been invaded by...that guy~AHJJJJJJJJJJ!! My space! And then to make things even worse, he starts talking to me! " hi names william" and bleh! i was obliged to speak back, come on, i don't want to seeem rude. *sighs* and then he just wouldn't stop talking!! I mean, i know this may surprise you, but i just didnt feel like talking!!!

To top it all off, it was damn windy! Gale force winds and im stuck at north melb station for 30 mins with a potential rapist next to me..just my luck~ Out of nowhere...what happens next? He starts holding my hand. I froze up inside. Scared outta my mind! I couldn't do anything. If i screamed, there wasn't anyone around and omg, did i mention i was scared? Half heartedly i was thinking that "hey if fairytales do exist, where on earth was my knight in shining armour to rescue me from such...events"~ *sighs*

Before the train comes, he goes " can i sit with you on the train" and omg i so wanted to be all brave n go " leave me alone" btu once again, there was no one else there and i wasn't sure if this guy was high on drugs or something, hell i was just really scared. I was going home after english 40+ program and basically i was soo tired~

So what happens on the train? He sits next to me!! There was a lovely lady doing some oh so wonderful and intricate knitting of those olden style table clothes, so lovely! I started talking to her to get william off my back but then he randomly started holding my hand again and YIKES!! I don't like randoms holding my hand.

Then thank bloody god, west footscray station arrives and it just happens to be his stop! But oh no, he can't just simply leave can he. He gets this idea in his mind that he can hug me and kiss me. So what does he do? He hugs me then goes to kiss me....aghhhhhhhhh! i dodged and he barely got my cheeks but omg!!! what the?

Oh dear holy macaroni cheese and bread and everything on top! It truly was an experince that scared the pants off me!! Never shall i speak to randoms, even if it seems as though i'm doing something rude! Not after last night!~

SIGHS...

2005-08-24T18:42:00.000+10:00

That is seriously how i feel at the moment...and all over a prac SAC for english tomorrow. *tries to relax*. I've been trying to all day but i don't think it's actually going to happen. And if it does, consider me dead! :( I want to like be feeling like......................................................................

Well like the above. Full of life, energy, joy..hell full of spirit!!!!!!! Although it won't take much to get me to jump up and down like a maniac and scream for a non existent team called "shorties". It'll be like cheering for myself. And hello, who doesn't like cheering for their own self? Am i right or am i right? Yep, that's right, i'm right! :) Ahh, it's good to live in an illusion sometimes. One thing, it keeps reality out and we all know about reality don't we? Yeah, that's it..it's like ...THAT!

I must get going to writing my prac prac sac before tomorrows actual write up of the prac sac in class. Honestly though, The Age of Innocence??? *sighs* it's like.... an incessant bitching session!

all that's been said...

2005-08-05T06:28:00.000+10:00

This year so far really has been something hey? To get to the point, i'm desperate to write. However no such event has occured for me to inform of you all. But, don't fear!!

This year, it just so happens i have like the coolest english teacher!! She shares many a thing with us, her most famous of that being, her ability to share with us quotes she picked up. Hence, what i'm to share with you all is that of the quotes given and said in class. Enjoy!

* " She was a dog who didn't want to get washed".....you know it's best if you don't ask for an explanation of that as i don't recall how it said..but it was~

* "You don't know what you don't know".....speaks for it self~

* "I AM PRO-SEX"....THIS HAS TO GO DOWN IN HISTORY AS THE BEST QUOTE EVER!! Said by daniel, out of our class discussion about how priests and such lead an unormal life as they don't have sex and sex is natural~

* " If you can't get it up, get a 2 foot pipe"~....um okay this is related to The Quiet American. See Fowler is addicted to opium and them pipe things and he cant always get it up. So my teacher said that maybe he resolutes to pipe to compensate.

* "Love is allowing yourself to be vulnerable..."~ Related to The Quiet American...about the whole love aspect of the novel.

*" Are you a huppy?"~ ...a huppy..a mix of a yuppy and a hippy...ah you gots to love mixes!

*"Listen for what you don't know, not what you know"~....my teachers own little words of wisdon

*" It's not complex, it's bizzare"~....does this not explain everything in life?

*" If you think you are too small to be affective, you have never been in bed with a mosquito"~ ( Bette Reece)....i have no idea why this was said but it was..

[ sex advice given to the author of The Age of Innocence on her wedding day by her mother ]
" haven't you seen enough statues to know that men and women are different?"~....MIGOD AM I GLAD I LIVE IN A SOCIETY WHERE SEX IS NOT REPRESSED! Imagine how scary and freaky would it be if you didn't know what to expect on the wedding night lol oh dear~

* " Someone you notice is a beauty...someone who notices you is a charmer"~....related to The Age of Innocence!

Well there you have it, please comment about which you like! LOL My fav is Daniel's~ lol

friend, art, spuds, books, sex shop and chocolate!

2005-07-31T12:31:00.000+10:00

The year is 1998. It's June. The height of grade 5- that's right, the plans of how we'd be cruel in yr 6 were being thought up. But then BANG! In less than a month, i'm told i'm moving house, school, subarb...basically to a whole new world! From the famous dover st clayton nth, i moved to the quaint world of Essendon. From Amsleigh ParkP.S. to...Essendon P.S. From being with my best friend Bianca everyday at school....to be stuck with people dressed in red and black...weridos!!!

So today, after having not seen her in about 6 months we met up~ As usual, there was a mix up when we tried to find each other at Flinders St station...( let's not get into that) :) Big hugs when we finally reunited! B was in a pink mood today, all the same, like always, her look was cool her, theres no bianca but bianca!

Our first stop was to the NGA, DUTCH MASTERS~ Seriously recommend to all!! I'm not an arts student myself ( that's B's speciality) but wow...it was incredible! Come on...the clouds and trees are spectaculor! Well they were my favourite aspects of most of the paintings!! But yes, the likes of Rembrant and Vermeers are there.

After polishing off lunch ( SPUDSSS!!! ) we went to the fed square. OMG! There's a 2nd hand book sale on every saturday's...i so did not know that! After much search and thought, i bought Trainspotting for $6~ Then at Dymocks i bought a Penguin company 70th yr celebratory book- Jamie Oliver weekend recipes'. A cool well spent $3.95!

Back at Melbourne Central...yes went to the sex shop! LOL. It's not exactly a sex shop...its called..."condom kingdom...gifts with a twist". Hence, i consider it a dirty giftshop. Dirty it may be, but a gift shop it still remains!! Next we walked around and bought some chocolate and then made our way for departure at the train station. Her on the Pakenham line, and i, on the Sydenham.

So the point i'm trying to make is that today, after a hellish few weeks at school, i had a really good day. I get to see Bianca only once or twice the year. The years apart have meant we've had to make new friends and we have different things going on. All the same, when we catch up, as rare as it is, it's like nothings changed! The one thing in my life that hasn't changed, despite the changes that have seperated us!

So here's to friendships that rok!

aftermath..

2005-07-19T13:55:00.000+10:00

Okay so yes, i will be writing this post about Harry Potter. Seeing as though i finished reading it, barely 10 minutes ago. I sit here writing this in a start of shock, horror and pain. It was as friends told me at school, "devastating". So very devastating. But then it was also so brilliantly inscripted into the plot, you have to salute J.K. But then, dammit, i'm hurting~ Yes yes, hurting over a fictional charactet whom over the past 5 years, i've come to love. YES LOVE! HE/SHE/IT was the greatest!! Who didn't love he/she/it??? EVERYONE DID! EVERYONE HAD TO!?!?!?

Oh how i craved to read the new book after i hastily read the 5th book. But now i'm in a state of depression i think. Oh, but then i am also so very looking forward to the next and last installment of Potter. Gives me the shivers to realize that there's only going to be one more book left before J.K. stops creating the magic that fills the pages and eventualyl binds to become a book.

*sighs*...WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?

Why is it the best and worst things to happen, happen together?

HARRY'S HERE!

2005-07-17T13:49:00.000+10:00

JULY 16TH 2005...THE SINGLE MOST GREATEST DAY SO FAR~~!!!!!!! 5.30am , the alarm wakes me. Eyes still drenched with sleep. It's cold, oh so very cold. And then it hits me...JULY 16TH...HARRY POTTER ARRIVES TODAY!!! Rushing, i get ready ( i try and wear as much as Green possible...go slytherine! ) and then at 6.30am my brother and i leave for Anna's house....

Anna's house isn't in sight for long as Anna immediatly gets out and from there Highpoint is like a 10 minutes drive. At Highpoint, its sorta eerie. It's quiet. There's no one there!! We're the first to get to Dymocks! And it was only 7.20am. Slowly as the time passes, the masses of people come. AND I MEAN MASSES! There were a lot of people.

At 8,50am, the doors opened and the queue got orderly. ANNA AND I WERE FIRST IN LINE!!! WOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111

BY 9.02am, we were outside, our souls satisfied. 2 years and 25 days of waiting had come to an end.

If only everthing in life went smoothy. My brother is reading now, i read tomrrow because i had to do h.w. Darn you h.w!!! But still...SINGLE MOST BEST DAY EVER!!!

unintended antic..

2005-07-16T15:50:00.000+10:00

The room was hot. It was hot. Hell, it was summer. Melbourne summer is HOT! Beyond the average temperature, the day was between 30- 35 degrees. And i'm more of a winter's person. It's nice and cold...hot chocolate ( no guilt)...hugs.. yes winter is fun! But yes back to summer...

It was hot! And psychology, last peroid on a thursday, does get a bit long and dreary. As usual, my usual accomplises were on my table and we were taking learning about the topic of sleep literally...we were trying so hard not to do it literally. Yes, it was that hot! And humid. And icky. And sticky. And the room did not have any air conditioning system.

Finally, the teacher realized we were frying our brains off and literally gave up on the class. What else does " go ahead and catch up on work" mean? I don't recall how it came about but somehow my friend ( of the male kind) started talkin about what he would do if we were a female. A classic convo- mixed gender roles! As you can imagine, what he would do if he were a girl...well what wouldn't any guy do if they had the "goodies" hey?

But he went astray a little and surprised me with his reponses. May be it was the heat. May be it was the boredom. Because see, i never act irrartionally. Never. Well never, but this day was an exception. Out of nowhere i suddenly go " mate, if you were a girl, this is what you'd be doing all day"- and i demonstrate that he'd spend his days sitting ( the way guys sit..odd) and would just get the collar of his top, bring it forward and spend aeons just looking down his top and at his chest. Don't ask but yes i demonstated this. And then, just then, i looked up and saw through the class door. Stareing right back at me was a group of primary school boys on a school tour. Standing behind them...their parents!! Standing near them....the school vice principal !!!

Horrified! Mortified! Freaked out! What could i do?...

I did what any normal once would. I acted as though nothing happened as my accomplises laughed at yet another of my unintended antics...

another embarrassing moment...

2005-07-14T14:17:00.000+10:00

Yr 10, a year of many things. Top lockers. Last year in stirling part of school. The year before VCE starts. First year of no maths. And of course, the year i got to be a peer support leader to the lil yr 7's. Let's ignore the fact they were at least a foot taller than me...what is it with tall people?

Okay what i'm about to share with you all was quite possibly the most flattering and disturbing event of yr 10...*sighs*..why me?

It started after i started talking to him at Essendon tram stop as there was some weirdo there, and him being in my team, i felt it my duty to look after him. Hence i started talking to him. And then he started catching the same train as me to and fro from school. Caught the tram back home with me. SPoke with me at school. Spoke with all my friends. I didn't think anything of it, you know how yr 7's are. I was like, ' oh yea, i have a yr 7 buddy, no big deal".

But then by some weird twist of fate, he had other things in mind. :/ I remember the day ...don't ask why, i remember weird events. We were waiting for the 8.07 Broady train at Essendon and were having our usual conversation about weird things. And then he goes " hey so what you doing on the day off tomorrow?" And me being the 15 year old i was, replied the only logical thing. " Shopping i think, not sure". And then he goes " if you decide you're doing nothing...um..GO TO PUCKLE ST" and im like " err why?" and then at the speed of light he goes " OH-YOU-KNOW-ILL-BUY-U-COFFEE-OR-OR-ANYTHINGTHATYOUWANT-IDONTREALLYCARE-WE'LLJUSTDOSOMETHING-" And then the train came...

It wasn't until peroid 2 that it hit me...a year 7 had asked me out. Just to be sure i consulted with a friend." Hey sarah, if a 12 yr old asks you to go somewhere to have caffeine/coffee...did i just get asked out by a yr 7"...which got replies of "OMG FARIAL GOT ASKED OUT BY A YR 7"...and it just continued..

*sighs* on the brink of turning 16 and my bubble was burst. For heavens-sake isnt what he did illegal or something? He was a sweet boy...that's right boy!! But i never did anything to give him the wrong impressions and yeah needless to say, we didn't talk as much after that.

I do believe things went down the drain after he asked for my mobile number and i told him i didnt have one. 5 minutes later corrina msg's me for some reason. And then to make up for my blunder i told him outright " it wouldnt be appropriate" to give him my number. To which he replied.." appropriate?? who uses the word appropriate"...:/

ONE WEEK!

2005-07-10T14:53:00.000+10:00

It being a Saturday, i had to wake up at an ungodly hour and rush to get to alek's house for Jap tutor on time. Surprise, surprise, i got there at 10.10am like always. Why do i worry so? More importantly, why do i ask myself rhetorical questions online? Okay STOP!.....Where were we??...Ahh yes, Jap tutor. Well it wasn't that interesting, we did work. I learnt about the drunk Japanese businessman. Now that i think about it, every single saturday, somehow, the topic of alcohol always creeps up. Am i missing something? It doesn't matter, the anecdotes shared are quite funny, so it's all good.

After it was over, i was dropped off at highpoint to catch the bus home but as fate would have it, i missed it by 5 minutes and hence had to wait an hour for the next one...AN HOUR! Now for those of you whom now me....well you'd know my sense of direction as well. It was just me and my common sense battling it out in highpoint. *sighs*.....guess what?? It wasn't that bad!! I spent a few minutes getting my head together at the fact i was there by myself and then i was fine.

Obviously time was spent at Dymocks in preparation for next week's Potter release. Flipping through books and imaging myself there next week with the latest Potter book in my hands and....okay i should stop, i'm scarying myself. But it shall be a grand event next week readers, exactly 2 yrs and like 25 days after the last book i shall get the next book! :) :)

So the point of this blog? Nothing too important as you can see but i can confirm that....

1) HARRY POTTER IS OH SO SO SO SO VERY NEAR!! and for someone whose had it pre-ordered from the 21st of jan this year...it's been a longg wait~

2) i spent one hour at highpoint without getting lost. Which must mean my sense of direction is slightly improving. :)

take care xoxo

the first casualty of war is the truth...

2005-07-08T16:19:00.000+10:00

Here we again huh? Another year, another terrorist attack. First 9/11, Bali, Madrid and now London. Geez, the human heart just seems so consumed with love hey? Am i missing something? What's with the hate around these days. I found an article about the bombings..

Statement claiming London attacks
The BBC has located an Islamist website that has published a 200-word statement issued by an organisation saying it carried out the London bombings.
The organisation calls itself the Secret Organisation Group of al-Qaeda [literally the base] of Jihad Organisation in Europe.

The group not previously been heard of. The website has previously carried statements purporting to be from al-Qaeda. It is not possible to verify such claims published on the web.
This is the full text of the statement.

In the name of God, the merciful, the compassionate, may peace be upon the cheerful one and undaunted fighter, Prophet Muhammad, God's peace be upon him.

Nation of Islam and Arab nation: Rejoice for it is time to take revenge against the British Zionist Crusader government in retaliation for the massacres Britain is committing in Iraq and Afghanistan. The heroic mujahideen have carried out a blessed raid in London. Britain is now burning with fear, terror and panic in its northern, southern, eastern, and western quarters.
We have repeatedly warned the British Government and people. We have fulfilled our promise and carried out our blessed military raid in Britain after our mujahideen exerted strenuous efforts over a long period of time to ensure the success of the raid.

We continue to warn the governments of Denmark and Italy and all the Crusader governments that they will be punished in the same way if they do not withdraw their troops from Iraq and Afghanistan. He who warns is excused.
God says: "You who believe: If ye will aid (the cause of) Allah, He will aid you, and plant your feet firmly."

I'm so sick and tired of the mujahadeen freedom fighters. Bloody hell the mujahadeen was created by the US to get rid of the soviets from Afghanastan. Not to fight a bloody jihad. So whats going to happen? Now britian will retaliate and this whole circle of killing will continue. Great! So all's fair in love and war? History repeats itself? Or do we just not know any better?

all eyes on you..

2005-07-08T08:35:00.000+10:00

If you've been in on the latest issue around town, its been the G8 Summit. And with the Live 8 concerts, the exposure has escalted beyond means imagined. For good reason too, poverty, climate change...these things are happening right now and we're in the dark about it.

However like any cynic, i have my doubts about it. The plan is to give Africa a $50 billion aid package. And hey, that's great. Good amount. But what about the fact that Africa is mostly run by warlords. And the fact that the Africa's resources are exploited by countries in the G8 like Japan. Their fish stocks, cocoa, diamonds...ring a bell?? Mr.Blair, Bob Geldof, Bono, i applaude you for your efforts to vanquish poverty in Africa. I spent the first 7 years of my life there, so in a way its always going to be home to me as well...so summit leaders, pull your heads in, do something.

They're going to be discussing climate change and yet India and China are not in the "inner circle" of the summit. One day the G8 has to escalte to the G10. China and India must join. China with a rapid economic growth of 8% for the past decade. China and India have both been industrializing to the max...hence i ask again, why are they not in the inner circle of the summit??

Climate change is an issue that has divided opinions.Some believe in it, some don't. For the ones who don't believe in it. I implore you to go to the Pacific Islands ( Tuvalu, Marshall island, Kiribati) and ask the islanders if they've been noticing anything unusual in their neck of the woods. You know, freak weather conditions and such things.

President Bush has recently admitted that " yes may be the climate is changing" but he still doesn't believe in signing the Kyoto Protocol. Oh no, he has other ideas. You know, financing for the development of other energy efficient energy. Like how John Howard has given $500 million for the development of Geosequestration. Something that cant be proven for at least a few decades. But if we don't reduce emissions in 50 years, we're sorta done for.

America's power is evident. They reduced the Kyoto Protocol which was aimed at being the door opener for emission reduction to being nothing but a joke. It aimed to reduce emissions by 80% by 2010..but it was negotiated to a 8% reduction. Well done uncle sam, well done. Once again, you're captalists belief's have "saved the world" from evil.

The G8 summit brings the world's powers together in an effort to help those countries who are so impoverished, there's souls vanquishing every 3 seconds. It's an effort to reduce our man-made destruction of earth.

In two days, 8 men sitting around a table, at a 5 star hotel on a luxury golf course will decide on the future.

The world will be watching.

JoY bAngLa, bANgLa jOy!

2005-06-19T02:04:00.000+10:00

Eyes wide and dreary, I came online this morning to check the scores and it read...."Australian cricket sank to a new low in arguably the greatest upset in the sport's history, losing to Bangladesh in the tri-series one-day match at Cardiff's Sophia Gardens." And i simply fell off my chair. But then i got myself up and by that time the reality of what had happened dawned on me..BANGLADESH HAD WON! So i did what any other normal person would do...i went screaming down the corridor and woke the whole family up...it wasn't that early..8am on a nice winters sunday morning! They all went crazy too. Yes, you could say the Bangalis in my house this morning were truly on a euphoric high!~ I have to admit i was one of those cynics whom when the match began stated things like " this is a waste of time, my boys are going to topple Bangladesh", but tell me, who did not realize something was in the air as soon as Gilchrist and Ponting got out?!

Zaf, this time i'll forgive your mum for going against the team australia played for!! Bring out the tubla's, let's make the somoasa's, devour in the botha and play some drunk Spetrum in honour of our boys!!

JoY bAngLA, bANgLA jOy!

MAS*H 4077

2005-05-27T11:04:00.000+10:00

The world outside was cold. The grey colds dominated the skies and gave a feel of an endless route of depression. The sudden appearance of the artic wind around town, had a way of going through ones skin, going right to the bone and leaving one feel numb by its coldness. The music in my ears raging away an old school 1990's song. Walking up the drive way felt like an eternity. I had to get to the door, i had to open it, go in the house, put the heater on and get myself comfortable. With the heater on and me all comfy in my pj's, i was ready for MASH! Having endured yet another day of yr 12, MASH is like my relief drug. I can honestly say it's my first love...all of them...mostly Pierce but yes...i love them! *SIGHS*

Having studied the Korean War and the Cold War in school in the past 2 years, i cant tell you the connection i feel when the characters subtly pipe out a political joke about the US Adminstration. It's odd i know, but come on, name me one show that has has the same effect on audiences as MASH has? All of the characters have some kind of quirkyness and hell i love them all...in some off warped way, even Frank Burns. LONG LIVE CLINGER AND HIS HEROIC ATTEMPT OF TRYING TO CLAIM A SECTION 8. And also. to put it simply, Alan Alda is a legend!

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2005-04-29T16:27:00.000+10:00

So there I was, faithful readers, going against everything that I knew. Yes, it can be said that tonight i was outside my comfort zone. I was at Flinders St Station by myself ( well i was after Christine left on her train). I must say, it wasn't as bad as i had imagined it would be. I sat there on the bench, minding my own business and just stared off into my own little world. Thoughts about the seminar on China/Taiwan relations floating through my mind...And then alas, my train came and i boarded it...Ah, but things were not to go my way tonight. For from Parliament station till Tottenham station...i had this FOB sit opposite me..stareing at me the whole way. It wasn't like stareing as in the occasional glance stareing- i could live with that. NO this was like...full on...almost right in your face stareing. The guy must have been like 21 of something but omg...freakiest thing ever. I started reading a book to avoid him looking at me, but with each page that I turned, I felt his gaze on me...and not in a good way :/ To make matters worse, when my parents called, his eyes turned on my phone ( which is like the biggest brick alive but hey it still dials out ) and after i told dad to be at Keilor Plains station in 15 minutes, he turns on me and asks for my number:/ Normally if this happened and i declined, i'd feel flattered that i had been asked. But this is different. I felt so uncomfortable, he was inches near invading my personal space. Yes, i know, i know, i should've said something like " yeah sure 1-800- FUCK OFF" but im not used to this sort of thing ( shaz, shut up! that was a one off) ...

MEN!

2005-04-24T07:57:00.000+10:00

What can I say? I feel as though there really are no words to expain how I am feeling now. Hollow, empty, sad, angry, bewildered, pissed off, really pissed off, really really really pissed off....heartbrokern one might even say. We had a connection, he and I. We knew where we stood, we had our roles. We only got to see each other once a week as fate would have it but it was worth it. Sometimes it took 2 mintues, other times an eternity...but it was worth it. Now its over, WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSSED TO DO? I'M LONELY...so very lonely. My saturdays will no longer be the same. I feel as though a hole has been burned into it...*sighs*.....Faithful reader i get the feeling you're asking yourselves , "who the f**k is she talking about?" His name is Jonathon Biggins. LOL NOOOOO! Nothing like that! He used to be a columnist in the Good Weekend magazine of the saturday Age. I've since discovered that he has now quit. MY FAVOURITE WRITER IN THE WHOLE DAMN MEDIA INDUSTRY ...AND HE JUST LEAVES!!! And no!! I wasn't in love with him ( i'm not that deluded), i was in love with his column. a.k.a. his writing. But now he has left and i just feel so lost. My Saturday's have lost all meaning....I REFUSE TO READ THE AGE...okay thats a lie. BuT STILL~~ A little warning would've been nice. Not a " hi, its me again and i just have to let you know that this is my last coloumn". AAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGRRRHHHHHHHHHHH!! MEN!

SILENCE I SAY!

2005-04-18T08:15:00.000+10:00

My family have left me!! No, not literally. But I am home alone right now. I was left home alone for the first time at the age of sixteen. Thus, you guessed it! I'm a wuss. When I'm left home alone at night, all the lights are on, the tv is on, music is playing, the cordless is next to me, my mobile is ready to ring ( the number 000) and nearby I have obscure objects at the ready...just in case. I dont know what it is I'm expecting...a robbery...attempted murder...a psychopathic stalker...I'm just scared. It's merely afternoon now and already the noises are getting to me. I'm one who cannot cope with silence...something to do with the dark and silence that scares me. Thus I hear everything. Right now, the Beatles are playing..its about the billionth time I've heard their albulm today but all the same, its calming! Maybe its McCartneys voice or Lennon's lyrics ...it's just calming...its noise and not silent. I've been doing homework for the past two hours and I took in all the sounds- the pen scrawling on the page, pages turning in the text book, my own breathing even the maniac birds outside. It's not all bad though. I mean being by myself means...FREEDOM! All the rooms are mine. Hell, the pantry's even mine! If Heartbeat were still on, I guess I'd be excited over the fact the TV control was mine, but its not...thus I dont care. I shall sign off now faithful reader and get back to my world of silence and the Beatles.