report card

This year has been crazy, ridiculous! All in all, amazing. I wouldn't change a second of it. I know that the person I was at the start of the year, is not the same person sitting writing this. Have experienced and learnt too much. Here's a list of what the education institution of life taught me this year.

• I can survive.
• I’ll always be scared of the dark.
• Nothing is impossible (this includes cooking).
• The best way to eat fish and chips is with fresh chili.
• Strangers can become amazing friends.
• Humanity is beautiful.
• Kindness has not been lost in the world.
• Beauty truly is in the eye of the beholder.
• Family; easy to hate; impossible to like; always love.
• Love is complicated.
• Love can survive complications.
• Getting thrown in the deep end is the best way to learn.
• Asking for help is okay.
• Taking the initiative is good.
• Loneliness can cause destruction.
• Reckless behavior is needed at some stage in life.
• Don't regret things in life.
• Have a knee-jerk reaction to disregard religion.
• Respect and admire person’s faith in religion
• Long distance friendships make the best friends.
• Empathy helps you grow.
• Fiji has a cricket team that I can’t wait to support!
• Tolstoy is awesome, addictive, splendid…
• Only having beer and pawpaw in the fridge equates to a healthy diet.
• Pawpaw is the best cure for a hang over.
• Karaoke is the best in the middle of the night.
• BBQ’s at 3am taste the best.
• Spending an afternoon drinking wine with your best girls and singing songs is amazing.
• Jewelry is addictive in every country.
• Friendships will be lost.
• Friendships will be gained.
• Laughter is medicine.
• Laughter is contagious
• Laughter helps you grow.
• Taking the risk, reap the rewards.
• Am obligated to no-one but myself.

Like i never left

This feels all too familiar.

Currently, I am at the State Library, attempting to finish my field study ( 8000 word paper). I admit, it is my fault that I am struggling to finish it. I left it until 3 weeks before it was due to start it. And now it's overdue, but have been given until the end of this month to hand it in. Woo hoo?? Stressed out of my mind. But I don't stress like I used to. There used to be a time when I'd stress so much I couldn't sleep for several days and make myself sick. Ah, good 'ol VCE. And I'm sure that's how I passed 1st year of university.

That drive has effaced now though. I find myself daydreaming about what I want to do next rather than focus on the "now". Not helping the situation I know! It's been hard having to put on hold my travel plans and be realistic about my options for next year....work or post grad studies. Though most likely, it's going to be work. *sighs*

Have had such a crazy year. And just got offered my first job in the professional world. It's only a 3 month contract. A part of me is glad it's only 3 months, and another part of me hopes it gets extended. Starting next wednesday, so have a week and a bit to worry about it all!

NO ANIMALS, NO FIREWORKS, NO WEAPONS!!...

So i went to the commonwealth games opening ceremony dress rehearsal last night with B...wow it wouldn't end!! It wasn't that bad....wait sorry, i'm not allowed to say anything about it..confidentialty reasons you know. I must admit though, that the conditions of entry were absolutely ludicrous. Like for instance, NO ANIMALS, NO FIREWORKS, NO WEAPONS...I mean, spoil the fun!!! B and i had a blast though, sitting on our seats, dancing and grooving to the melody and of course, singing out aloud, "wake me up before you go-go" by WHAM! Because..who doesn't like Wham? And George Michael in those delicious shorts in the video clip. Yes, the 80's was the pinacle of AWESOMENESS!!!

On a more serious note, the conditions of entry were abit over the top. I mean the simple fact that they had to state " no weapons" was beyond ridiculous. Dress rehearsal, none of the big names ( like SHANNON NOLL...note the sarcasm)...why would anyone want to bring a weapon? Be alert not alamed my arse!!! The hysteria's gone beyond what it should've. At this rate, everyones going to suspect everyone....bah! Anywayz that was my two cent towards society!

exam up-date...

With two exams left, i've sort of started to relax. The first four were awful...well the stress was. I do believe i did alright on my Japanese oral, not only because the examiner was cute but because i spoke well!! English... in all honestly i don't know. I'm so annoyed at myself. I've put so much freaking time and effort into that damn subject, not to mention three years of tutoring~ We got these comprehension questions this year and my teacher wanted thorough answers for them, so i'd start at 6pm and finish at 4am doing those darn questions!! So yes, term 1 , i was literally a walking corpse! But then the exam....bah! It was crap beyond words can explain. I'm really pissed off at myself, went in crying, came out utterly devastated. I was contemplating so many things afterwards, some really stupid things but i was just so angry at myself. Damn you VCAA!

And psych and lit? Well psych i dont know. I went in feeling nothing, came out feeling the same. God this is going to make me sound like a nerd, but i actually had fun in the lit exam. The passages were good and i just couldn't stop writing- hope thats something good. Or do examiners take mark off for writing too much? I wrote like ... 6 pages for the cherry orchard and like 4 or 5 for gatsby? Man i don't know, i just did it and it's over!

Japanese and International Studies left....yippy? Did i mention japs like my worst subject? I didn't, ah well, now you know!

last night...~

"What platform is the sydenham line?" a voice asked me. I turned around to face baby blue eyes. It was a guy. Nothing quite special about him, just a guy. Having to catch the Sydenham line incessantly eevery week i knowingly replied " yea platform 4". With that i walked off, and made my way to platform 4. I found the cleanest bench and made myself comfy. But omg, was it cold! I got out my book.."trainspotting"...omg seriously a good read, if not a bit on the challenging side!

And then to my surprise, my bench space has been invaded by...that guy~AHJJJJJJJJJJ!! My space! And then to make things even worse, he starts talking to me! " hi names william" and bleh! i was obliged to speak back, come on, i don't want to seeem rude. *sighs* and then he just wouldn't stop talking!! I mean, i know this may surprise you, but i just didnt feel like talking!!!

To top it all off, it was damn windy! Gale force winds and im stuck at north melb station for 30 mins with a potential rapist next to me..just my luck~ Out of nowhere...what happens next? He starts holding my hand. I froze up inside. Scared outta my mind! I couldn't do anything. If i screamed, there wasn't anyone around and omg, did i mention i was scared? Half heartedly i was thinking that "hey if fairytales do exist, where on earth was my knight in shining armour to rescue me from such...events"~ *sighs*

Before the train comes, he goes " can i sit with you on the train" and omg i so wanted to be all brave n go " leave me alone" btu once again, there was no one else there and i wasn't sure if this guy was high on drugs or something, hell i was just really scared. I was going home after english 40+ program and basically i was soo tired~

So what happens on the train? He sits next to me!! There was a lovely lady doing some oh so wonderful and intricate knitting of those olden style table clothes, so lovely! I started talking to her to get william off my back but then he randomly started holding my hand again and YIKES!! I don't like randoms holding my hand.

Then thank bloody god, west footscray station arrives and it just happens to be his stop! But oh no, he can't just simply leave can he. He gets this idea in his mind that he can hug me and kiss me. So what does he do? He hugs me then goes to kiss me....aghhhhhhhhh! i dodged and he barely got my cheeks but omg!!! what the?

Oh dear holy macaroni cheese and bread and everything on top! It truly was an experince that scared the pants off me!! Never shall i speak to randoms, even if it seems as though i'm doing something rude! Not after last night!~

*SIGHS*...

That is seriously how i feel at the moment...and all over a prac SAC for english tomorrow. *tries to relax*. I've been trying to all day but i don't think it's actually going to happen. And if it does, consider me dead! :( I want to like be feeling like......................................................................









Well like the above. Full of life, energy, joy..hell full of spirit!!!!!!! Although it won't take much to get me to jump up and down like a maniac and scream for a non existent team called "shorties". It'll be like cheering for myself. And hello, who doesn't like cheering for their own self? Am i right or am i right? Yep, that's right, i'm right! :) Ahh, it's good to live in an illusion sometimes. One thing, it keeps reality out and we all know about reality don't we? Yeah, that's it..it's like ...THAT!

I must get going to writing my prac prac sac before tomorrows actual write up of the prac sac in class. Honestly though, The Age of Innocence??? *sighs* it's like.... an incessant bitching session!

all that's been said...

This year so far really has been something hey? To get to the point, i'm desperate to write. However no such event has occured for me to inform of you all. But, don't fear!!

This year, it just so happens i have like the coolest english teacher!! She shares many a thing with us, her most famous of that being, her ability to share with us quotes she picked up. Hence, what i'm to share with you all is that of the quotes given and said in class. Enjoy!

* " She was a dog who didn't want to get washed".....you know it's best if you don't ask for an explanation of that as i don't recall how it said..but it was~

* "You don't know what you don't know".....speaks for it self~

* "I AM PRO-SEX"....THIS HAS TO GO DOWN IN HISTORY AS THE BEST QUOTE EVER!! Said by daniel, out of our class discussion about how priests and such lead an unormal life as they don't have sex and sex is natural~

* " If you can't get it up, get a 2 foot pipe"~....um okay this is related to The Quiet American. See Fowler is addicted to opium and them pipe things and he cant always get it up. So my teacher said that maybe he resolutes to pipe to compensate.

* "Love is allowing yourself to be vulnerable..."~ Related to The Quiet American...about the whole love aspect of the novel.

*" Are you a huppy?"~ ...a huppy..a mix of a yuppy and a hippy...ah you gots to love mixes!


*"Listen for what you don't know, not what you know"~....my teachers own little words of wisdon

*" It's not complex, it's bizzare"~....does this not explain everything in life?

*" If you think you are too small to be affective, you have never been in bed with a mosquito"~ ( Bette Reece)....i have no idea why this was said but it was..

[ sex advice given to the author of The Age of Innocence on her wedding day by her mother ]
" haven't you seen enough statues to know that men and women are different?"~....MIGOD AM I GLAD I LIVE IN A SOCIETY WHERE SEX IS NOT REPRESSED! Imagine how scary and freaky would it be if you didn't know what to expect on the wedding night lol oh dear~

* " Someone you notice is a beauty...someone who notices you is a charmer"~....related to The Age of Innocence!

Well there you have it, please comment about which you like! LOL My fav is Daniel's~ lol